She's leaving

She is leaving for awhile, leaving her lovely sweet sister alone. She is leaving for 10 weeks to somewhere we all fear to go, besides hell. Well if you think about it, that place is hell. I just wait helplessly for the text to know the verdict. She was given 10 weeks. Its not as bad as i thought it might be, but the thought of having to go there is pretty bad enough. If only i had met her earlier or got to know her earlier. I probably would have tried to stop her. She is the most interesting girl i've ever known. Her personality evolved from her dramatic life. Every problem she faced only served to make her stronger, bolder. Thats what i like most about her. I just hope, she will repent and learn from the mistakes. I missed the time when we used to talk everynight, text every minute. God knows there is a place in my heart for her. For all that matters, be strong, stay sweet. Amin.

Playlist

Have you ever felt a chill down to your spine, running through your bones, then bounce back to your hairs, goosebumps, after a song you listen to? Well i surely have, after every of the songs i listen to. And sometimes it will also remind you about someone, its strange for some reason, a situation, good and bad, and places, somewhere you have been before. Here are some of the songs that make me have the chills everytime i listen to.

Turn your lights down low - Colbie Caillat version. Originally by Bob Marley.
Eveytime i listen to this song, it will reminds me of Phuket. The combination of the beach, the sand, the "Beach boys" i hanged out with when i was there, the sun and my dreadlocks (probably explain everything, huh? haha). I really do missed this place despite the drama, the tension, the panicked moment me and Felony encountered. Besides, all that, there was also good moments. The girls that i had the time of my life with, the japanese, the party and the cool dude.

Fearless - Taylor Swift.
This song reminds me of Emily. I seriously do not know why. It just does, its strangely weird. Maybe because when we used to work together at gramophone, doing the entrance bag-tagging. She will sing along to Taylor Swift's song everytime its been played on the main stereo. But this song doesn't give me goosebumps, only reminds me of her.

Lie - David Cook.
This song is when i was going through a situation with Syaza. How i felt being played, cheated and someone-ripped-my-heart-out kind of feeling. Its definitely not a good moment, but i survived. Nothing that i cannot handle.

All at once - The Fray.
The lyrics of this song is the exactly the feeling i felt when i was with Diana, towards the ending part. Every word in the song explain why i acted that way and how it eventually lead to the break up. I was stupid, i definitely realise that myself. I was nervous on how serious we are getting. Well, i was immature back then, but the exprience really out grown me in many ways.

Hijau - Zainal Abidin
This song truly reminds me of Rezwan. My best friend during my Coast guard(My Ns) time. We both like this song, and we would sing along to it everytime Wan and me are deployed in the same boat. And this song reminds me of Tioman trip. Me and Rezwan and bunch of Rezwan's twin friends. It was a awesome trip, the people, the chalet, the sunset and the snorkelling trip.
It was a feeling that made me remember the place everytime i think of ocean and crispy pizza.

The best day - Taylor Swift
Its a feel good song that reminds me of a lovely wonderful woman, my mom. No matter screwed up i am, no matter how i sometimes dont appreciate her. She will never stop loving me, will always be there for me everytime i needed help. She would wake up early and cook me lunch so that i dont have to spent my money on food, just before she go to work. awww.

I'm ready and Dark Blue - Jack's Mannequin.
These two songs were introduced by Diana. And they will always make me think of her everytime i listen to them.

I have nothing - Charice. Originally by Whitney Houston.
This song seriously give me goosebumps. I do not know if it is the song or her voice. She is the Philippines girl, who has the most beautiful voice i have ever heard in long time. In case you guys have not heard of her, should check her out at youtube.

Past.Present.Phuture

Nothing in life is certain, you just can't predict what's tomorrow going to be. Sure you can plan, set a layout on how you want your tomorrow. Sometimes it does, sometimes it turn out to be totally unpredictable, in many different ways. It would suprisingly make you happy, at times it'll be otherwise. I went to an interview a couple days ago. A friend of mine was going through the classifieds, came across an ad; a company hiring some position with a good pay. She was so sweet to text me, since she knows my current job sucks big time. 

So i went to the place, it was crowded as i expected. I get in line, to get the application form. I handed my recent i.d photo, they attached it to the form, and handed me back with a copy of instructions to follow. I read the 2 page long instructions carefully. About ten minutes later, i filled the form. Handed back to the personnel and was asked to proceed to level 3, swimming pool side. Soon as the lift door open, a room full of hopeful job seekers waiting patiently to be called. A handful of attractive targets were in the room too. I looked around, imagining what if i were to open to one. But i didn't, it will be weird. Plus i was nervous and restless by the long wait. Minutes turned to hours of waiting, so i took my book or rather my bible to kill time.

Soon my name was called, i get up from my seat as i make my way through the crowds of tired faces staring at me, wondering when is their turn. I was lead by the interviewer into a small room. As i was seated, the interviewer goes "So Khairul Anuar, do you got any perusal or resume for me?" as he scanned through my form briefly. "No i don't, all i got is my cert'. i handed him my file. He flipped through the pages and start questioning me again, "So what do you know about this job, roughly?". As he stared right through my eye, hoping for some good answer. "Hmm, well", thinking hard. "From what i can tell is that i need to serve customer, find them a room and..", I paused, hoping to squeeze a few more, " Yeah, i guess that is all". Then its struck me that i should have said more, something at least to make it sound convincing. 

He then asked me if i got any question for him. Of course i do have questions, in fact a lot to be ask. So i asked him about the job scope, on how the probation procedure are and a few more relating to the job. He asked me few more question before ending the interview and told me that i will receive a call lastest by tomorrow if i were selected. So i leave the room, make my way pass the door to the lift. I exit the building and when home straight after.

The next day, I waited for the call. Morning turns to noon, still no call received. So from that i knew i dint get the job. Actually this story has no happy ending, cause its real. In real life there is no happy ending i guess.

first sarging attempt

Finally i'm bloggin. Afterall this time of me wantin' to blog. Never quite had the time to create one. Well, another reason is because, i have no idea how to create it. Had a little help
- actually she did it from the start - from Emily. Well, everyone has to start somewhere. My time is now. So here it goes...

I stood at the counter, thinking back of what happened on friday. What i should and should not have done. After all those pages that i have read, i thought i was ready for the game. The fact was, every rules, every opening i tried installing in my brain, makes me more nervous
for it to be used.

I went to Double O on friday night with couple of my mates, - Ogy, Ash, Felony and Ard. I when to meet Ogy first at Bugis. He was sitting at Starbucks with his friend Sarah.
Ogy and I knew Sarah way back, when he dated Yaya. So i sat down, ordered myself a chocolate blended. Ogy was feeling down and keep complaining about his upset stomach. I advised him to get a check up. Feared as to the recent tragic about "Geylang's famous Indian rojak", where hundreds fall ill and 3 dead after consuming the "famous rojak". We talked about Ogy's recent heartbreak drama for awhile. Then someone suggested to go Clarke Quay for a "Kick-start Drink" while waiting for the rest of the gang to arrive. We left Bugis around 10 plus.

We took a cab to Clarke Quay. Its was crowded as usual, and we had a choice between this Cuban bar (i forgot the name) and Forbidden City. There was a large crowd at the Cuban bar, so we decided to go Forbidden City. We sat outside so that we can smoke freely. I ordered a Kilkenny beer, Sarah ordered a martini and Ogy ordered himself some wicked mixture of drink and chicken drumlet platter. I scanned around to look out for potential target(like as if i was ready to sarge) and learn that it was full with mature older groups. Then i saw this waitress, resembled a primary school classmate, I couldn't remember her name. I don't bothered to ask though, not that i'm being stuck-up or anything, just the thought of it might be a wrong person or she don't remember me, would humiliate me. So i save myself from the humilation and continue talking to Sarah, about how paranoid her boyfriend's acting.


While in the middle of the deep conversation, i received a call from Ard. "Kau kat mane?(Where are you?)" Ard said with his deep just-woke-up voice. "I'm at Clarke Quay, ar". I replied. "Bastard siol kau tak kejot aku (Bastard, you din't wake me up)". I din't even know he was sleeping, i assume he would wait for Felony to get home and go together. (Ard is Felony younger brother). "Mane aku tahu kau tido, asal ayot tak kejot kau time die balik?(How would i know that you're sleeping, and why din't Felony wake u when he reached home?)". He said he'll call me back, and he hunged up. I was abit pissed with him for some reason that day, that i don't wish to share. So i call Felony to know where he's at. He told me he's on the way to meet Ash at Ash's block. And told me that he will call me as soon as they're in the cab and to meet us outside Dbl O.


It was already past 12 and i'm getting restless from sitting and conversing an empty topic. I didn't thought my night would be so boring. If I had known this was gonna be it, how i spend the night, i would have gone to Johor's chalet with my family. Then i received a text message from Felony, saying that they're reaching soon and to meet us outside Dbl O. I can feel the excitment rushing through my veins again. We walked Sarah to get a cab, then we walked to Dbl O. At the entrance out, i met my NS mates, Dennis, Gary and Wayne. Gary was already drunk and start to neg me as soon as he saw me. I ignore him and talk to Wayne. Wayne was so cubby that i almost didn't recognise him. We used to bully him during our Basic Police Training Camp. I remember one night, he was taking a dump, and the whole bunk of 10 people gathered outside the cubicle he's in, quietly. One of us was video recording it with a handphone. Then Gary knocked at the door, saying "Wayne quick! I wanna shit, quick!". Everyone controlled themself so that it won't be so obvious and he won't suspect anything unusual. "Go use another cubicle lar, i'm gonna be for awhile" he replied with tense in his voice. "All cubicle occupied, quick lar Wayne!" Gary answered with harsh tone. " Wait lar, i'm not done yet!" Wayne said, with pressured felt in his tone. "Quick lar!", as Gary continued knockin rapidly. I think he sense something is not right, he look up and saw someone was video recording him. He was shocked and started shouting " DON'T disturb me lar!"; while evil Gary continued knocking and shouting "Quick lar, Wayne!". Makes him more pressurised to do his business.

Soon as the boys arrive, i was suprised to see Ard was there, we entered the club, make our way to the second floor. It was crowded, ratio of 6:4 girls to boys. We went to the main bar, scanned around for spot. I ordered 5 jager bombs. Felony collected 7bucks each. Then i took out my 50 dollars, Felony grabbed the cash and suggested the drinks on me. I disagreed for awhile, then think to myself ohh, what the hell, im the one planned the whole clubbin thing. So yeah, the drinks were on me. While waiting for the drinks, i scanned around for potential set. I spotted one target, she was wearing half dress with tight jean and heels. Orange dyed hair, with typical chinese skin tanned. The bartender set the jager bomb routine, then we drink to the lost time. As i turned to find the target, she was already gone. So i went to search for her, i went to the dance floor, smokin room, the other bar, no sign of her. So i rejoined my group, ordered another jager bomb and 2 jug, only this time its on Ard.


We drank up and sing along and dance a little to what's playing. After awhile, i went to the smokin room alone. While smokin, i saw a two-set, petite figure, with short hair and other had it tied to the back. The short hair, was wearing a black short dress. She was holding ciggarette and LG Viewty on the other hand. I know what to opened this set with. I plan my routine in my head, count to 3 and when for it. "Hey, i'm sorry". As i took my LG Viewty out of my back pocket, "I got a missed call from my fren and accidentally press on cancel. Now im not sure how to check it out." I handed her my phone" Im kinda a new user to this phone, can u help me?". She unlocked the keypad locked and press the call button. "You just need to press on the call button, and it will show the list of number, from dialled to missed call". She said as she showed me. "Ouh, that simple huh?" I smoked a puff. " Yea, it is". Then the other girl spoke. "Sorry we have to get back to our friend", as they killed the cigarette out."Alright, i'll see you at the dance floor". I try not to sound like a losing end. "Thanks yea". I said. They smile as they leave. I stay for awhile after they leave. Smoke another cigarette, think back on how i should have said it. I rejoin my friends who were dancin in front of the main bar.


The night at Dbl O ends with Ard was heavily drunk. So we decided to call Abu, another friend of ours. We said to Abu that Ard got into a fight and needs his help to pick us up. So we arranged to meet at clarke quay taxi stand. We almost had to drag Ard's ass to get to where we are supposed to meet Abu. While waiting for Abu to arrive, two Caucasian girls approach us. One was a blonde, wearing hot pants, mini dress with cardigan over. The other was brunette curly hair, wearing tight jeans and floral shirt. Then the blonde pathetically asked for 2dollars, saying that they had not enough money for cab ride home.


All of us were looking at one another, dazzled by them, shamelessly for asking random strangers for money. I guess when you are desparate you would do anything. Ash suggested for a string attached. He said that they would have to kiss a dollar each. They agreed but only to a kiss on the cheek. So I reached my wallet and took out 2 dollars. As they approached to kiss me, i said "Hey, one at the time". So the blonde went to kiss me first, as i turn to give my cheek. Soon as she about to kiss my cheek, i turn and go for a lips instead. I did it to the brunette too. A kiss closed, which i pathetically had to pay for. Soon after, Abu arrived, we dropped Ash at Nana club, and when home. It was pretty lame night, i sure had fun with the boys.


Till my next post.